It’s been awhile

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So, it’s been a minute since I have updated. A lot has happened.
We had the sentencing for my nieces murderer. My sister started a change.org petition and we got lot’s of signatures and some media attention. http://miami.cbslocal.com/2012/07/10/killer-of-teenager-lindsey-graham-sentenced-8-years-after-crime/

Click link above. That was a great feeling after a so so so disappointing verdict. I felt really proud of my sister for her hard work. It was a combined effort I helped her a lot and so did my nieces paternal Aunt Gigi. Lindsey’s fathers family really showed up for her big time. I am forever grateful for that, I should both her fathers her dad and step dad. I felt disappointed my own family (my father included) could not be there. I know it’s hard to drop everything and rush down to Florida, especially in these tough economic times, but I feel how I feel. Let down and disappointed.
Which leads me to my other reason for posting today. Daddy issues. Oh boy do I have them. He has been a continual let down for me and I have such a hard time dealing with it. To the point that I get upset about every little thing involving him and that side of the family.

On another note I am employed again. I am feeling especially bad today so I will leave it at that.

Where Are We Now

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Well, I started this blog almost a year ago and I have not posted a darn thing. I have wanted a blog for a long time. I have straddled the fence on how I wanted to approach this. I want to be authentic and true to myself but I worry that if I talk about the people in my life they might not like it. I worry about whether exposing my life could cause me future complications in my career and future. But, after thinking for a long time I want to be true to myself and I feel the need to express myself somehow. This blog seems like a good idea right now. Maybe a few years from now it won’t. I really have decided on the theme/focus of this blog. I have a lot of things going on in my life, and at the same time nothing at all going on it seems. Let’s make a list:

1. I am fat. I currently am probably 100 pounds overweight and I can’t stick to a plan to get it off although I keep trying and trying.

2. I am unemployed, although that will change temporarily starting Monday for a few months. But I still have to find a permanent job.

3. My niece was murdered almost eight years ago August 5, 2008. She was my sister/daughter/niece. It was horrible and I want to write about it but I want to do her justice in doing so.

4. After eight years, we just had the trail for the person who murdered my niece and he was found guilty of manslaughter. This was heartbreaking and still devastating to me. I can’t understand it when I know that he killed my niece in cold-blooded murder. So I am grappling with this and wondering how to not let it tear me apart inside and make me fall further into the depth of my depression and weight gain.

5. We still have to go to the sentencing hearing in July, where we can try to convince the judge to give him the maximum sentence under Florida law.

Those are some of the negatives, I will list some of the positives now.

1. We have a garden. It’s awesome and amazing to watch things you plant grow then cook them and eat them!

2. I like to cook. I love to eat. I want to show off some of my creations here. I need to express my inner chef.

3. I love my family. They are drama full at times and loads of fun at times, they are always there for me at the end of the day. I want to talk about them here. I want to tell stories that make me laugh and cry.

Hmm…. that’s all I can think of for now. I believe this is a good introduction of where I am May 12, 2012.

All the best,

Kenzie

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